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[Oct. 6th, 2009|02:39 pm] |
They're starting to open up the sky
They're starting to reach down through
And it feels like we're living in that split-second
Of a car crash
And time is slowing down
And if we only had a little more time
And this time
Is all there is
Do you remember the time we
And all the times we
And should have
And were going to
I know
And I know you remember
How we could justify it all
And we knew better
In our hearts we knew better
And we told ourselves it didn't matter
And we chose to continue
And none of that matters anymore
In the hour of our twilight
And soon it will be all said and done
And we will all be back together as one
If we will continue at all
Shame on us
Doomed from the start
May God have mercy
On our dirty little hearts
Shame on us
For all we've done
And all we ever were
Just zeros and ones
And you never get away
And you never get to take the easy way
And all of this is a consequence
Brought on by our own hand
If you believe in that sort of thing
And did you ever really find
When you close your eyes
Any place that was still
And at peace
And I guess I just wanted to tell you
As the light starts to fade
That you are the reason
That I am not afraid
And I guess I just wanted to mention
As the heavens will fall
We will be together soon if we
Will be anything at all
Shame on us
Doomed from the start
May God have mercy
On our dirty little hearts
Shame on us
For all we've done
And all we ever were
Just zeros and ones |
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| R.I.P 3D Realms |
[May. 14th, 2009|11:51 am] |
R.I.P 3D Realms
well...
I guess we'll never fucking see Duke Nukem Forever now will we?
~b |
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| what is a monster? |
[Sep. 1st, 2008|10:29 am] |
a week out we started joking, "oh my god, would you look at the size of that thing?!
what are we to do?" " fucking storms, how big do you think it might get?" "I dunno, maybe it'll just wipe this place off the damn map this time..."
the joke streches for a few days, it is something to pass the time, when you live in the city, after a while somethings take on a kind of mystic form, somethings are added, tacos from a truck being among the newer, somethings are old, omemlettes from camillia grill, snoballs and hansons, or robears somethings make no sense what so ever, "Why the fuck can't we make left turns?'
the joke becomes real slowly, worry-lines dart faces, suddenly you need a case of water for the house and there's none to be found, the next day generic cases of candian water takes the spot of your favorate brand, cause the stores can no longer get the aquafina's and fiji's that you are used to, bread becomes a mysterous legend. checkout times for the stores ramp up from twenty minutes to hours. people who haven't seen each other in years notice each other waiting in line at the local s-mart, yell loudly and exchange hugs and worries and hopes. you can tell the people that aren't emotionally invested in anything by the way they look, they aren't quite shellshocked enough, or they've gone off the deepend, that is no way to be in this situation.
suddenly it's three days till landfall and all hell has broken loose, gas has become the beast, and hunt it you must, twelve...fifteen gas stations, luck apon half a tank of overpriced blood of the earth, to waste a eighth of that finding more.
what can I take? and how much of it? is this truly important enough to merit space? do we pack like a sane person? or do you get the giant 20 gallon garbage bag and start filling? there's cages for dogs to be considered, and fits are thrown about how many pairs of shoes are too many.
did i forget my special something?
you drive all night, wired by the need to make things safer for the ones you love, a week out of heart surgury, i watch my father for a little while at least, rebecome my rock, making sure that i dont fall apart, and letting me vent. you do a five hour drive in ten, and thank whatever gods you might like for the break, knowing leaving a hour or so later could have increased that three-fold easily.
phonecalls start in the middle, where are you? how are you? have you left yet? have you heard from who? somewhere in the way you hear the words direct hit, and you wonder how anyone can be expected to go though this twice, you hear some patronizing asshole on the radio talk about how noone could imagine that these storms could come like this, you hear about how the army corps of engineers decided to take their time with the rebuilding of the levees, " we didn't think that a storm of this magnitude would hit the new orleans area again this fast" so they decided to take six years to build, three years later, everything falls apart.
you make it to safehaven, to the hotel/motel, midnite to ninish, to be told to come back at 1am, no matter the health or situation of anyone. large groups of howling, greving people is not where you want to be, so you go inbetween driving and sitting, watching the dogs run around, driving some more to stay in the air conditioning, slowly watching the strength drain out of my father, slowly sinking into this special madness again.
finally getting into the rooms, you goto s-mart and buy the hurricane special, a ice chest, some juice, lots of snacks. turn the news on, and it begins. news, home, flood, work, flying cars(and not the type that one would want), even when you try to do something else, it always comes back. you walk around and you can see the looks, people breaking down and crying, news on everywhere, you can't get away from it...it follows you whereever you go, whatever you are doing, it's a pain down the spine that can't really be explained, unless you know it.
jokes help, arguing about which of my father's new neibours have the worst pot, "dear lord, if i was fleeing my home with pot, i'd at least spring for some good shit man." you eat, you watch, you lay around, you watch, you turn the radio on at some point, you remember this is the 00's and start streaming the local news station on the laptop, "i'd rather listen to my assholes, instead of these other assholes"
we're alive, that's what matters at the moment, but something in my head seems to have snaped a bit, i'm hoping that maybe the way i'm feeling is just stress from this shite, but i dunno.
~b
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| so... |
[Aug. 25th, 2008|09:05 pm] |
30/70
not good odds, he deserves better, but it seems its to the point that it's either that or just rot and die.
ive been preparing for this for years but ive never ever thought that it would be like this, everything is just fucking getting stable, why now? why not let him stick around and do his fucking yard work and maybe be around for a few more years.
i dont do these things well, i did at one time, but that was so long ago that I dont even think I resimble the person that would be able to do it.
so im suppose to drop him off at the hospital on the way to work tommorow and just forget about it. go on about my day the way i normally would and just hope for the best, how the fuck do you do that? how the hell can you just say something like that, whats the thought process?
I can remember having no real emotionally attachment to things, i wish i could still be bulletproof like that, instead of hyperwtfemotional like i tend to be these days.
oh well
if you have a good thought for me, leave it, gods know i have none for myself.
~b |
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| a test |
[Aug. 18th, 2008|04:04 pm] |
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Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test... Modern, Cool Nerd74 % Nerd, 74% Geek, 39% Dork 
For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd. Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)! Congratulations! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following: Buffy the Vampire SlayerProfessional WrestlingLove & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TESTTake The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test at HelloQuizzy |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 13th, 2008|09:30 pm] |
over the weekend I will be playing MGS4, for anyone who knows me at all knows how holy a new Metal Gear game is, so expect most calls to goto voice mail, and the only real thing on my list other then seeing Skungy's new house and perhaps seeing the Hulk is sitting in front of my giant fucking tv spending some time with my old friend Snake while listening to Death to the Pixes.
~b |
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| Rocky |
[Mar. 8th, 2008|05:03 pm] |
so for anyone who didn't know, which the way I've been is more than likely everyone, my dog Rocky is not very likely to make it past the weekend. He got lung cancer that is like 80% of his lungs, and on thursday they spotted a mass in his tummy as well.
I don't really know what to say or do about this.
in fact I only post this because I figure a few of you deserve to know.
I want no questions or comments, thank you.
~b |
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| PHONE NUMBERS! |
[Jan. 20th, 2008|12:12 pm] |
Hey guys, my Q got dropped in the rains of last week, and I don't have current sync, so if you could, give me a comment here(which will of course be screened so everyone else doesn't see.) with your number/email/whatever so I can refill this fucking thing.
~b |
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| Rambo |
[May. 21st, 2007|06:22 pm] |
You know..it's really simple at this point.
All Sly needs to do is keep doing really good sequals to old movies.
case in point A)Rocky VI
case in point B)Rambo.
don't believe me?
go watch.
http://www.aintitcool.com/node/32721
~b |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 5th, 2007|06:25 pm] |
so...
it's been all but confirmed that blizzard will be announcing a Starcraft MMO in two weeks.
god why?
why would that happen?
~b |
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| fuck fox news and fuck jack thompson. |
[Apr. 16th, 2007|10:43 pm] |
if(news==shooting && shooter.age < 25)
{newsFlame = true;
blameVideoGames();
else {Attempt legislation = new Attempt(state);
// where state represents an int between 0-50 mapping to a state
blameVideoGames();
fuck fox news and fuck jack thompson.
~b |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 8th, 2007|09:15 pm] |
so a slight warning, it takes little over 4 hours to format a ps3 harddrive, it was all just kinda blah, but I did get YDL on there, and I'm now slowly working out the kinks in remember my way around it. going to fuck with mame and all this week. and try to make a nice box out of it. of course sooner or later I'm going to have to start teaching joanna how to use it.
Sopranos was great. and I've also watched almost all of battlestar that is around on dvd atm in the past week or so.
life isn't half bad at the moment. hope the other shoe doesn't drop.
~b |
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| I'm a idget. |
[Apr. 7th, 2007|05:24 pm] |
So after another exciting bout with whateverthefuck chest virus this shit is/another slight asthma attack I'm raring to go..well to go nowheres.
so instead I'll be spending the night installing Yellow Dog Linux onto the playstation 3 for fun and profit!(Profit being the whole streaming video + console emulation shit (which more then likely still won't stop me from buying shit off of the Wii's virtual console, how fucking stupid is that?)) fun being I barely have a idea about what the fuck I'm doing! w00t!
so wish me a bit of luck, as I'm nowhere the nerd I used to be in these matters.
~b |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|03:02 pm] |
Quote of the day.
"Dreamcast wasn't a real system, it was a mass hallucination of how things should have been."
~b
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 8th, 2006|06:59 pm] |
ATI is offically dead, all future ATI products will be under the AMD brandname.
that kinda sucks.
~b |
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| for brian |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|07:18 pm] |
for brien....
~b |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 21st, 2006|04:51 pm] |
 | You scored as Paganism. Your beliefs are most closely aligned with those of paganism, Wicca, or a similar earth-based religion. You may also follow a Native American religion.
Paganism | | 83% | Satanism | | 83% | Buddhism | | 79% | Hinduism | | 63% | Judaism | | 58% | Islam | | 50% | atheism | | 33% | agnosticism | | 17% | Christianity | | 8% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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